I think I hate being Shane's friend. Well...I might not hate it, but I sure didn't like it today.

When we talked on the phone Saturday, he was sweet, nice, funny, pretty much the same as if we were still together. He just didn't say "I love you" when he hung up. This morning, he was sweet, nice, funny, and the same as if we were going out. Practically let me hang onto his waist telling him how happy I was that we had Geography together, and that we could talk more and stuff. I had a personality test I wanted to ask him to do with me as an assignment for Carrer, Family and Leadership in 1st period, and by third period I was real excited to see him again. I haven't seen him in 3 weeks! When he came in I was like, "Hey, Beeler! I have to ask you something, come here." And he made a face at me and told me no. Walked over to another seat far away from me, even though the one next to me and my friends was empty, and sat with some other dude, staring at me the entire 48 minutes of class.

I didn't like it. Then his stupid ex asked him back out for me, screaming in across the classroom, and he didn't answer, he just laughed and ignored. I was really pissed about it. He didn't talk to me the rest of the day, not even in Math or anything. After school I asked him about the personality test and he said with this little attitude "I don't rate my friends." As if he were some hero; the only person on the planet who doesn't feel comfortable rating his friends. I don't even care if he told the truth or not! I just have to get TONS of people to help me out, and I thought for SURE he'd do it, and it would be one person down.

Being his friend days after we broke up was fine. Pretty much nothing was different. But now he has this rude-ness about him. He's rude, he's sarcastic, he won't do the tiniest little favors, he doesn't care about me, or if I'm his friend or not, he won't talk to you unless it's like....serious, or something, and it sucks!! It's really pissing me off. He'd better pull the stick out of his ass and straighten up, or I'm not going to talk to him at all. As much as that might hurt, being treated like crap for no reason by him isn't worth it. I wish we were back together.

My other ex looked hot today.

xx