i m sick of this things happening..neither i study nor do i enjoy the things that i do on daily basis..surfing over internet for like 6 hours everyday..talking to girls..doesnt really make life worth !

playing guitar but i m betraying myself..i neither give my 100% into it either..i feel like reading something but too lazy to go to library..hang out with friends..talking about shit..no fruitful conversations..i really dont remember when i had been into a debate or the conversation which was not about bitching someone or gossiping..or something that made some real sense !

i m of no use..i neither have real friends..every1 hates me and those whom i hang out everyday, they can't be called friends..they are with me untill they dont find me some other like me..of whom they can make fun of..who can ride to everywhere they want to go !

i suck big time. song ideas have been flooding inside, but this laziness aint letting me do anything. plus its too hot here almosy 43 degree celcius. i m surprized that i m alive..i cant go out in the noons either..even it hot at 7:30 in the morning..it gets lil cold at 7:30 pm..when the f*ck am i suppose to go out.

one good thing happened in past few days/weeks that i have almost quitted smoke.

anyway, nothing really got to say ! thanks for reading bullshit !

mood : frustrated

now playing : antikrist - dimmu borgir