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I can't seem to hold these feelings in Scary thoughts of my past keep creeping up my back Spent hours trying erase this user error Trying to explain but I'm clinically insane It will only confuse the common sane Hollow shell of a man Playing the victim hoping to see some change Seven personalities make up the daily Never steady like your best mate But shaky as f*ck can you relate But those who really know me know the meaning behind these faces Angry outbursts last for seconds becoming diversions to the Decisions on the fly leaving my pocket high and dry as Moments of darkness haunt my days leaving me Craving isolation to set myself apart from the population As anxious thoughts stack up Heightening frustration Have you ever had happiness leave quicker than lightning I go in hoping for the best but that feeling just left me like the rest Leaving me voiceless amongst my competition f*ck all this mental stress I can't let myself give in Bending to the will of others is out of the question But to allow inhibition to affect my decisions Is like negotiating with terrorists making deals with our nation During these times of oppression we need the voice of a leader Suggesting Snowden's return doesn't sound so bad either His premonition of corruption causing chaos and destruction The only one to acknowledge our legislation is conning our knowledge Exposing secrets of those now buried in coffins Sparking feelings to rise up and speak Riots spread like fire each one so unique Not racist, but black lives matter is just a cover for a bigger matter Pulling back the wool that covers our eyes We're just drones controlled until the day we die Bicker behind the keys of a message board Slandering others just to boost our petty ego But my ego is like a Christmas party's ugly sweater Funny and weird as can be But reserved like a fine wine Sitting on your shelf just passing the time Until the day you're ready to face the man you've become A mere reflection of your father What the f*ck I told myself I would never be my father I told myself I would do what he didn't and go farther That my kids will never grow up like we did Inadvertently his words of wisdom reached my heart Soon after his love was ripped from my arms Distance causes family to speak not so frequently Daily activities converted into descriptive journal entries Only to read them off to a voice heard through the receiver But I understand now what it all entailed You fought the hardest fight that any man would ever allow Thoughts of your kids growing up without your presence Drove a stake through your heart you couldn't help but scream out A silent cry for help you hid it so well But I understand now To sit by and wait must've been hell You did it for the sake of saving face I pray everyday that you're not so overwhelmed