petewentzsgirl7913

Life inspires me. I write what I feel what I think.. I write to feel like I'm still human. I gather inspiration from the music around me. Sometimes I sit on a swing set and think about anything. Songwriting is everything to me (:

I can promise you.. You Are NOT alone most of my lyrics have to do with that and I think I've figured out ways around the emo nonsense

Dear Blog Ok so I been like talkin to my ex and he kinda started liking me again and I was super excited Cuz he's the one I wrote young forever for and call me Angelina and sacred love and he's the one that I was scared to love but I'm not anymore and ya!! But we get to school Wednesday right and he's walking me to class and my friend Julian calls me up! And he's all dude get off his jock and I'm all huh?! What that's not what I'm doing! And he kindly informs me that there's another girl in a different school and he likes her a lot and my ex is head over heels for her... Ya... So I ask him about her cause lets face it I don't wanna look stupid by falling and then just getting screwed over again!!!! He says she is just a flirty thing and he doesn't really care for her and he says I'm a fun girl he loves to flirt with but I'm also a deep girl with a brain and he can talk to me when he can't say that about this chick.. Today I go up to him and I just start a pleasant conversation cuz I've been avoiding him in person and he totally goes all bipolar and I asked him what's wrong and he says I'm too egotistical for him.... And I'm like dude I have the worst self asteem ever??? And be freaked out on me... Ok but major prob is that this was upsetting me well my bestie texts me and she says this guy I wrote my overy first song for and have been pining for all my life Well he like loves my bestfriend... And that kinda shot me intheface... And Im dealing with the end of life as I know it Drama? Ya ... But it still hurts like a mofo... Fall out boy is usually the cure all ... Night (;

So its Friday, All I've done today i look at pictures of Pete Wentz, listen to Fall Out Boy, Everyone Dies In Utah, and Paramore. I think after all that I'd be able to find something. But nothing. I thought I wanted to write about... someone.. but I don't know now. I want..to feel something. I want to know that theres something good waiting for me. But I havent found anything. I really don't know. Maybe I just need to vent. I want to spend a day in Pete Wentz's mind just one day. I'd... probably die . But Just one day, Is that too hard, too much to ask for? Maybe I'm homesick. I've been on holiday for quite some time now. I miss my mumm and daddy. I mostly miss school. I miss all.. the struggle. Well.. i miss ... him... hating my every move. It makes me feel good about myself. I love his hatred. I've written countless songs about him and theyre all about me being "perfect for him". I hate.. that i used to feel like i needed to be perfect for him or anything else for that... anyway. I want to go back and feel.. better than i do now. Right now.. I just wanna run fast. I just wanna get out of my head for awhile. But I cant. So this is my FIRST blog.. Maybe you should get to know me huh! Ok Random facts time 1) My full name is Mikaela Natalya Martinez 2) My favorite things to do are song write and sing 3) I take all honors classes but you wouldn't expect that if you saw me. 4) I love to wear my nerd glasses, theyre real! 5) I have a brother and a half sister. (its complicated) 6) My favorite color is black 7) my favorite song is a day dream away by all time low listening to my favorite song makes me cry horribly.. everytime... 9) I have a pretty dirty mind 10) My favorite band is Fall Out Boy 11) A lot of people would say I look like Selena Gomez 12) I'm .. always.. hyper 13) I'm a magical kisser 14) I used to live in idaho 15) I'm a Gemini 16) I always wanted to be a song writer when i was like 9 17) My very first song was called Mercy 18) I wrote a song that had its own dance routine 19) My inspiration for my screamo songs is We Came As Romans 20) My Punk Songs, Fall Out Boy, All Time Low 21) My techno songs, Breathe Carolina 22) My song, Young Forever Was inspired by a song by Cobra Starship but is sung more like an Amy Winehouse song 23) I'm single 24) I always wanted to be in a girl group like destiny's child or tlc 25) I was quite jealous of Hanna Montanna 26) I have a pug named Bently <3 27) I'm abusive.. verbally 28) I have 5 best friends in the entire world 29) I believe in ... myself 30) I'm a dog person Ok thats all i can thing of for now!! Read my songs and my blog.. or neither ... im versatile