KieraPaiige

Thankyou both, alot!

Thankyou both means alot!

Thankyou!

thankyou!

For years i sat and wondered, why my life was this way.. nothing was making sense to me, so young my childhood was taken away. i tried to think of reasons why you hurt me so, 18 now wild and free, i think i finally know. i wasnt the easiest to handle, but never did i complain. for years i feared the sound of your voice, as you screamed out my name. as quickly as i could id hide away. underneath my bed. untill i felt you drag me out, hitting at my head. you told me to be quite, tears rolling down my cheeks. every time worse than the last, Black Bruises lasting for weeks. how could you be so mean? a father you are not.. forgive and forget - the saying i like the most. but this will not be forgot

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I remember the day, mom told me the good news. I was going to be a big sister, to not one but two. everyday that passed, was as exciting as the last. knowing that those 9 months would fly by fast. moms belly grew and grew, soon enough I could feel kicking and punching inside but I was so shocked there was two. we didn’t know your gender, we wanted it to be surprise. when our two beautiful babies, finally arrived. finally the day came, to the hospital we went, so excited to see our angels the heavens kindly sent. we waited for hours, then “its time†we heard you were both ready the grace the world. First one came, a girl, one look and we knew. her name would be. Charlotte Lee Ryan. a short while after the second one came. another girl, as beautiful as the first. Baylee Monique Ryan. you cried the worst! two Beautiful Baby Girls. the most beautiful ide ever seen. knowing I was your big sister. made me want to scream. the smiles, the cries. the sleepless nights.

Looking back on the years that have escaped me. wondering how its come to this. the love i felt as a little girl. soon turned into tears. a never ending waterfall. right from my very eyes. you didnt love me nor did you care. and at that im not surprised.. you've turned into a monster. my mother you are not. you let him change you piece by piece. of your children you forgot. i cant believe you tried to say. you did really love and care. the way you've treated myself and my brother. just really isnt fair! i tried to be the best i could. to try and make you proud. my plan failed, what a silly mistake. you pushed me to the ground. the yelling and fighting, the constant dredded hurt. didnt do me any good, you made me feel like Dirt.. Heartaches are all that you shared with me. not a mothers caring ways. instead of looking back with joy. those were the dark and lonely days. ive learned to love to be kind, from your demons i am free. sorry mom im better than you, ill never be what you tried to make of me.

Kiera Paiige. 18. Gay and Happily Taken. Guitar, Vocals, Drums, Keyboard, Bagpipes ( Grandad is Scottish!!) i write alot! so look out for my posts! hope you enjoy!