Moose

Hello, I'm an aspring songwriter/musician with a problem: I can't write! I've been recording little snippets of possible songs or tunes for a couple of years, many of which sound promising but are so small it seems a very small spark - maybe to small they will all just burn out? I have got a few which are more developed musically but I'm trying to put lyrics to them with difficulty. It is so frustrating because I feel like I have all this creativity fire ready to burst but whenever I try and set it off, all that comes out is some awful, childish, immature mess of words or terrible tunes that I know if I heard them in third person I would snigger and turn away. I am beginning to lose sight of that musical flare I used to be so excited about; I could imagine the 'aftermath' if you like, the genre and hopefully innovative ideas I had but now it seems all I can actually come up with is small bits of terribly average drivel. I couldn't even write a rubbish song with a normal, boring structure - can't even get that far! Also, a lot of whats coming out of me at the moment is not the kinds of song I want eventually - just quiet and boring. Am I going through writer's block? I don't feel I deserve this term as I don't yet consider myself a writer! The interesting thing is that I studied music A level where I had to write a song - yes I hated the end result - melody was weak and I didnt write the words myself, but the piano middle 8 was alright.. Im getting to the point where I'm beginning to not enjoy and even sometimes avoid music because all I think about is 'I couldn't even write that', but all I can and have ever seen myself doing is music. ARGH! Turning into bored fury! Haha Sorry about the influx of negative waves but is this normal for a beginner songwriter? I'm 19 and starting to feel like if I can't produce anything decent now, Im not going to get to the heights of wonderful-ness that fellow young people like Paloma Faith, Muse in their early days and indeed any young, talented songwriter/musicians manage. Why can't I?!