Hi all,
I'm a guy from Sweden who decided to pick up songwriting a couple of years ago. After writing some songs that I was really happy with, I eventually started thinking about trying to get into the business somehow. Sweden hosts a number of great educational programmes for songwriters that are directly connected to the industry and I've been very excited about the possibility of actually making it there. That was until I've slowly discovered that a lot of my better songs contain elements or entire motifs that have been ripped from songs that I've heard but never ever had in my conscious mind while writing them. Typically it is from songs that I haven't listened to in years, but they keep coming up anyway.
Typically, all my songs start to develop from discovering some small fragment of melody or a little motif that inspires me to write a complete melody or song. It's as if when I find that certain melody fragment or motif, my mind automatically associates it with something else and it just keeps going from there. The scary thing is that it seems that I'm guided by familiarity (or by hearing stuff that I personally like in my own writing) since a lot of stuff has ended up similar to something else.
I find all of this really depressing and it is starting to feel like there is no reason for me trust my intuition and that my inspiration is a bad thing. I do not condone plagiarism in any way, frankly, I am disgusted whenever I discover these things and it ruins my day completely.
Has any of you guys struggled with this before? I'm wondering if I need to simply change my mindset, maybe not being so goal/result oriented because that seems to be getting myself into trouble, but that also sounds very un-natural to me since I want to write stuff that I can enjoy myself and that I personally think is really good.
I might be making a complete fool out of myself for making a post like this, but any thoughts on this would be greatly appreciated...
/Michael