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[Trust]

hello everyone, it's just me 

standing up here reciting poetry

trust is an issue for me

another boring story

but tell me:

is there anybody out there that trusted someone so much?

that you were two, turned into one, tied together by trust?

and they would never betray 

any of the things that you say

every secret

they would keep it 

they would never stray away

from your mind

they would never try to confine

every single thought that you ever had inside

you would do the same

you,d protect the other's name

and when their life was at stake

you'd put your own on the plate

and tell Satan to wait

so that you could both escape

you went to hell and back together

you were the best of friends forever

and every single conversation that you ever had since then

started with the word "remember"

you had a lot of adventures

but when it all ended

you wanted to blow a house up

cuz it turns out they pretended

people like that should die 

disappear off of the earth

they are aliens to our kind

a problem at the birth

cuz if you manipulate people just to get what you want

then i promise you, it'll come back and bite before long

it's happened to me a couple times 

people mess with my mind

they think they're funny

think they're cunning

but that's where i draw the line

yeah there's some lessons in life

 that you learn while you're alive

never trust nobody

i don't even trust my self

will I fall short?

like mom and dad and who else?

my biological parents yeah, they were rotten and low

boom! i was born, then my dad wanted to go

my mom said "wait" dad said "to late"and then he starts for the door

my mom grabs his arm and he shoves her to the floor

he says "I'm sorry Loraine i can't stay here anymore

I guess it's time for me to cross back over the border"

then the traitor runs, leaving the three of us alone

I swear to god when that man dies i'll blow up his gravestone

cuz he lied but i know he's not the only one

nowadays people just do it for fun

I know plenty of people that say "I ain't like that"

just from experience i can never be sure of that

so pick your friends carefully

have relationships sparingly

cuz life is full of scares, lies, drama, tears, and twists

looking at it now, huh, ain't life a bitch?

cuz when your living your life

and every thing is right

all of a sudden your in a tunnel

and you can't see the light

caught up in the darkness and utter betrayal

you see? now it starts to sound like a fairy tale

now you sit in the dark and wait for somebody to help

and when nobody comes you realize it's yourself

that is alone in the end

you are your only friend

cuz when there is no body to fight

you always win

[Changing]

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[Armour And Sword]

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[Changing]

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that i'm too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

 

when i walk my chains sway

i'm gonna f*cking walk away

get the hell out of this bitch

how do i walk

just like this

1 step, 2 step, 3 step,4

ill walk and walk and look back no more

I've done shit i cant deny

people always ask me why

andrew, did you want to die?

i say yes cuz i wont lie

and every single time i try 

to forget it just reminds

me about all of those times

that i wasn't doing fine

but the past is the past, so just move on

you can talk about my past when i'm dead and gone

but for now live for today 

i'm never going back,

living for today

forgetting about the past

as i walk ill stop and stare

 i know if i could go anywhere

id go to New York, Boston, Chicago

find a place to put on a rap show

these bitches and these hoes 

the only thing they knows 

is that being fake is the only way to go

all this shit about my past,

i don't give a crap

you can go f*ck yourself if you wanna think like that

what iv done ,its behind me

what i've said, its a memory

yet people think its o.k.

to get up in my face

andrew you little faggot!

how could you let this happen?

how does it fell to be on my own?

to be gone and away from home?

That's none of your biz you mofo

now leave before i sock yo

shut up before i knock yo

ass down to the ground below

haters gotta stop living in the past

the present is becoming the present too fast

you know one day we are all gonna die, 

on your deathbed looking up, 

what did i do with my life?

talking to god, i'm sorry i'm a hater,

i was nothing but a liar and a player

hating was my life and my life was full of hating

god be like look ,sorry for what i'm saying

i'm sending you to hell

ill throw you down a well

oh what we were just standing and he just kinda fell

should we get him?

no he'll be o.k.

just keep quiet and walk away

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that im too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

ill leave you to die

 cuz you'd leave me

get rid of compassion 

it'll only hurt me

you think that people care about 

love you nigga get me out

this fantasy is killing me

the real world is what i need

people don't take me

seriously when i'm talking

they don't trust me man its shocking

all these pills and meds are blocking 

all the thoughts that i'm concocting

but i know where i am walking

out the door

turn around 

turn the key 

the only sound 

you'll hear is me 

walking out

and i wont look back

if i look back 

it only proves that 

i miss my past

but i don't want it anymore

so i'm gonna slam the door

i'm walking away

far far away

living for today

that's what your gonna hear me say

forget about the past

 the past is the past

the the only thing i'm passing 

is the thing that i'm retracting

i'm sure with a little acting

they'll forget and stop asking

i'm reeling in these memories 

i've picked up over centuries

6 feet deep ill bury em

so i don't have to carry em

all these words around my head

sorry if i forget,

but it was my papa who said

i can change if i really care

that set it for me then and there

i cant change my past,

itll haunt me forever

i can either run or learn

will i run?never

So stop talking about things that nobody even cares about

you still might not understand, so i'm gonna lay it out

i'm gonna wake up 

wash off this makeup

put on a mask

 and focus on my task

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that i'm too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

 

i'm changing for the people and the life that i once had

if i could do it over i would not be such a fag

looking at the man in the mirror i do not like what i'm seeing

i hate the guy that i've become that's what i'm decreeing

look i know i f*cked up

i'm trying to make it better

i'm trying to make amends

 that's why i'm writing this letter

I'm abandoning my past

i ain't ever going back

so you better shut your trap

or prepare to get bashed

i said i'm changing my behavior

but sometimes i cant control my temper

that's why i went to north range

wasting peoples time

cuz a few weeks later

 i was all good and fine

but they did not believe me

so i still go to therapy

and you know what

that's fine by me

cuz i get to hang with my homies

even when i was a newbie

it felt like they already knew me

as soon as i walked through that door 

i didn't feel alone no more

 

 

[I Love That I Hate]

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[Another One!]

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[Another One!]

[chorus]

i dont really like to think

while both my arms are turning pink

and all my blood is running down a sink

all of this cutting does hurt and it does cause pain

but it's the only mother f*cking thing

that will keep me from going insane

 

[verse 1]

 

when i cut, i knew that i was meant to do it, 

cause i thought that i was a mistake a counterfeit

and all of this cutting is what my other half urges

when i cut, even more of my blood surges

and from this blood a new part of me has emerged

now my two personalities have merged

 

[chorus]

 

 

 

[verse two]

 

all this stuff is in my brain,

ive gone insane

blood is my rain

my blood splattered on a window pane

a child beaten with a cane

 they profane

i do the same

i cant stand and watch this pain

id rather jump into a train

make a run

break down the lane

get bitten by a great Dane

im not strong 

my names not bane

there's nothing in this world to gain

im the lion

this is my mane

no one cares about my name

 

[chorus]

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[I Swear To God]

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[I Swear To God]

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[Untitled Beginning]

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[I Call This The Message]

[chorus] x2

 

ive got some cuts here and there

ive got cuts almost everywhere

only a perfect cut can and will start bleeding,

here how about i show what im f*cki'n seeing

 

[verse 1]

 

this one cut, 

the one right here

this one is just for my fear

i wish that i could always hear

that all my freinds could live a happy life 

without having two shed a tear

all my fear is for my friends and for my friends alone

that they can live a happy life at school and at home

now this second one here is for my insanity,

one day soon, i just know i'll be destructive toward humanity

even if i don't , i will sure cause a calamity

that's the reason i can't live you f*cker

that's the way it has to be

there is always someone mad at me

i'm not even trusted by my family

 

[chorus] x2

 

[verse two]

 

if this rap ever gets on a radiO

just listen to when i say

i wont do this for the fame O.K.?

i want to talk to kids my age so

let me give your children hope

please let me give your children light

at the end of the tunnel the light's in sight

 i learned that i was loved

i learned that i had friends

if i fell down cuz i was shoved, i would get back up again

some kids don't eat, some kids don't sleep

they're all depressed just like me

they don't eat

then people ask

"are you hungry my sweet?"

"no thanks, i already ate" they say

they look at all that food on the shelf

on the inside they scream "HEY!"

"can't you see i f*cking starve myself?"

 

[chorus]x2

 

[verse three]

 

you could kill yourself in a wink

drown yourself and just sink

your eyes are pink and you're arms are stained in blood

the bloods running down a sink

you might really want to die

but people do care about you, really

some people love you if you do or don't work out your kinks

so let some of the pain show

a friend's more important that a foe

if someone does some thing really low 

then theyre just a narrow-minded hoe

come with me we will talk

let's you and me take a walk

i will tell you your missing link

this is the message for everything

you have more support than you will ever f*cking think.

 

[chorus] x3

[#1]

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[Please Respond]

[chorus]

 

don't look at my fists

 look at my wrists

don't judge me by my body

just listen to my lips

 

[verse 1]

 

just cuz kids go and smile doesn't mean that theyre not hurting

you might never know and that is for certain

so don't judge someone if you don't know thier backruond

now think about that as you push them to the ground

the whole thing just makes my head pound

then again i'm just a guy stuck in the backround

 

[chorus]

 

 

[verse 2]

 

 

i won't come out so you can see

insted i'll go hide behind that tapestry

you might never find out what i do to myself,

the tool that i use is hidden on that bookshelf

just don't ask me what i did to my arm, 

i never really meant to do any serious harm.

i just do it so i can feel pain

some of my friends around me do the same

no one does it because they just feel a little lame

some do it for attention well i don't play that bullshit game.

 

[chorus]

 

[I Hope People Read This]

[chorus]

I really need some time

I really need some space

please get out of my mother______ face

I really need some time

I really need some time

I really need some time

I really need some time

            

[verse1]    

           

 

don't prod me

don't push me

don't push me past my limit

i really do not want to talk

so please just go and slim it

i don't want to talk right now 

So please go away

right now my whole is one of the fifty shades of grey

I'm a white gleaming angel that's been dunked in black paint

when you see all of my sins

that's when you'll see im not a saint

[chorus]

 

 

Im no goody two shoe

and I've never been

right now my insides are boiling at 500 kelvin

i wont be an angel no i think not

Instead i'll be a demon of the heavens

cause another 9-11

All these lives i will be selli'n

with the devil i'll be medlli'n

can you keep a secret?

no you better not be telli'n

Im gonna cause a felony

wait! look in my eyes 

this isn't me!

THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO AND BE

WITH ALL THIS PAIN INSIDE OF ME!!!!!!!!

 

 

[chorus]

 

LEAVE ME NOW

 

 

[Death Hour Revived]

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[V.3005 Verse]

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