I'm changing right before you're eyes,
i might need to improvise
I may fall down a couple times
but determinations in my eyes
i'm changing my behavior
i'm becoming my own savior
if you can only trust me
from my quest i'll never waver
when i'm done with my journey
you will see me differently
people see me as an egotist
just one more name on that long list
you say that i'm too late and out of range
motherf*cker stand here and watch me change
when i walk my chains sway
i'm gonna f*cking walk away
get the hell out of this bitch
how do i walk
just like this
1 step, 2 step, 3 step,4
ill walk and walk and look back no more
I've done shit i cant deny
people always ask me why
andrew, did you want to die?
i say yes cuz i wont lie
and every single time i try
to forget it just reminds
me about all of those times
that i wasn't doing fine
but the past is the past, so just move on
you can talk about my past when i'm dead and gone
but for now live for today
i'm never going back,
living for today
forgetting about the past
as i walk ill stop and stare
i know if i could go anywhere
id go to New York, Boston, Chicago
find a place to put on a rap show
these bitches and these hoes
the only thing they knows
is that being fake is the only way to go
all this shit about my past,
i don't give a crap
you can go f*ck yourself if you wanna think like that
what iv done ,its behind me
what i've said, its a memory
yet people think its o.k.
to get up in my face
andrew you little faggot!
how could you let this happen?
how does it fell to be on my own?
to be gone and away from home?
That's none of your biz you mofo
now leave before i sock yo
shut up before i knock yo
ass down to the ground below
haters gotta stop living in the past
the present is becoming the present too fast
you know one day we are all gonna die,
on your deathbed looking up,
what did i do with my life?
talking to god, i'm sorry i'm a hater,
i was nothing but a liar and a player
hating was my life and my life was full of hating
god be like look ,sorry for what i'm saying
i'm sending you to hell
ill throw you down a well
oh what we were just standing and he just kinda fell
should we get him?
no he'll be o.k.
just keep quiet and walk away
I'm changing right before you're eyes,
i might need to improvise
I may fall down a couple times
but determinations in my eyes
i'm changing my behavior
i'm becoming my own savior
if you can only trust me
from my quest i'll never waver
when i'm done with my journey
you will see me differently
people see me as an egotist
just one more name on that long list
you say that im too late and out of range
motherf*cker stand here and watch me change
ill leave you to die
cuz you'd leave me
get rid of compassion
it'll only hurt me
you think that people care about
love you nigga get me out
this fantasy is killing me
the real world is what i need
people don't take me
seriously when i'm talking
they don't trust me man its shocking
all these pills and meds are blocking
all the thoughts that i'm concocting
but i know where i am walking
out the door
turn around
turn the key
the only sound
you'll hear is me
walking out
and i wont look back
if i look back
it only proves that
i miss my past
but i don't want it anymore
so i'm gonna slam the door
i'm walking away
far far away
living for today
that's what your gonna hear me say
forget about the past
the past is the past
the the only thing i'm passing
is the thing that i'm retracting
i'm sure with a little acting
they'll forget and stop asking
i'm reeling in these memories
i've picked up over centuries
6 feet deep ill bury em
so i don't have to carry em
all these words around my head
sorry if i forget,
but it was my papa who said
i can change if i really care
that set it for me then and there
i cant change my past,
itll haunt me forever
i can either run or learn
will i run?never
So stop talking about things that nobody even cares about
you still might not understand, so i'm gonna lay it out
i'm gonna wake up
wash off this makeup
put on a mask
and focus on my task
I'm changing right before you're eyes,
i might need to improvise
I may fall down a couple times
but determinations in my eyes
i'm changing my behavior
i'm becoming my own savior
if you can only trust me
from my quest i'll never waver
when i'm done with my journey
you will see me differently
people see me as an egotist
just one more name on that long list
you say that i'm too late and out of range
motherf*cker stand here and watch me change
i'm changing for the people and the life that i once had
if i could do it over i would not be such a fag
looking at the man in the mirror i do not like what i'm seeing
i hate the guy that i've become that's what i'm decreeing
look i know i f*cked up
i'm trying to make it better
i'm trying to make amends
that's why i'm writing this letter
I'm abandoning my past
i ain't ever going back
so you better shut your trap
or prepare to get bashed
i said i'm changing my behavior
but sometimes i cant control my temper
that's why i went to north range
wasting peoples time
cuz a few weeks later
i was all good and fine
but they did not believe me
so i still go to therapy
and you know what
that's fine by me
cuz i get to hang with my homies
even when i was a newbie
it felt like they already knew me
as soon as i walked through that door
i didn't feel alone no more