Nothing Left Inside

[mark tranter aan]

Nothing left inside
 

chapter 1

For all the good he does in days he cannot seem to take..

Away the cycle of demise he knows will never break.

From what once was - to what now is -  there only lives the dark.

With all his wants - he still resides beyond that very mark.

Until the end - he could never seem - to break the void to find.

that life was took away from him in tragic lonely times.

oh how they laughed upon a man who made himself of stone

but what they'l never ever feel has chilled him to the bone

the loss that burns so deep inside- he hides his head in shame

cause every time he see's himself he thinks 'i feel the same'

No one can ever understand his burden from the start

No one will ever feel his pain and self made broken heart

'That man now chose his path in life' - that boiled him to the core

As everything he gave away - was everything and more

His, flesh, his blood and who he was, to desaturate the pain. 

But that's the choice he had to make - to sacrifice his gain

 

chapter 2

Now he lived among the wolves - a shadow in the times,

And though he pushed so hard in life, he knew he'd never find.

A day where he could break away and step into the light,

Well maybe that's' the price you pay for having shortened sight.

The memories he held so dear - now gone and lost in vain.

But still the hurt lives on beneath - Does that make him seem insane?

His heart is pure throughout it all - but its not enough to make,

His sole is stained - 'him' thrown away - and never will it wake.

The dreams, all dead but hes ok - he'll soon give back the days.

All that he knows he stole from kin - Through self inflicted ways

For what a waste to give to him, The very gift of life.

As all he feels in every way is cruelty, fault and strife.

 

Chapter 3

For now he says - 'we'l meet again' believing what he can

In pure denial in his belief, he wont ever say 'i ran'

Now Some would be wrong to assume, this over whelming phrase,

'He still lives on in our memory and in many different ways'.

Well you may think - 'oh what is real' - the fundamental line

'could it be as bad as this explains?' won't it heal his pain with time?'

I can now tell you what he feels - and why hes still alive,

That man is me, the one who lived, and not the one who died.

Now i am here for what he lost, i wont ever forget his name.

his dreams all which will stay with me - until i cant remain

I have nothing left of what i had, there is no face to hide,

Only a picture on the wall, there's nothing left inside.

[scotsman89]

Mark

self made broken heart  What  a line , great poem have only read it once so far but will come back to  it to try and digest further meaning . deep as an ocean . I think

john

[MPerry]

Hi Mark

 

Is your poem about someone self-destructive, suicidal?...or mental illness?  I am leaning towards a returning war veteran as your protagnonist?  it's a great depiction if it is, using great word images- you bring the whole piece home..nice write!..regards Mike

[LadySeda]

Wow.... this was so moving Mark. I hope your still writing and sharing. I've never been good with the long writes, but you do it beautifully. Sad and very involving. Tugged me right in. Great read.

 

Rebecca

[BJS]

very deep, In reading your words I can feel the struggle. Really like it, your lines below from chapter 1 dragged me inside your poem 

 

oh how they laughed upon a man who made himself of stone

but what they'l never ever feel has chilled him to the bone

the loss that burns so deep inside- he hides his head in shame

cause every time he see's himself he thinks 'i feel the

 

 

Nice write

[mark tranter aan]

So Glad you liked it guys
It's a sore point for me
It's written about my feeling's of my brother who passed away when i was young (16) - his name was Allan - and I'm very proud of him!!!
At the time of writing i was going through the phase of over taking how old he was when he passed. 
It was one of the hardest 'transitions' i think I've ever been through - and one where i felt the need to finally get it down into writing.

Thanks for taking the time to check it out.
And thank you for the comments!
Stay safe!
Mark. 
 

[soul2share]

Mark,

 

This is the very reason I was interested in this forum.  I enjoy depth in ones expression of the truth that lies within them, and this super cedes.

I could feel the honesty emotion and rawness.  Its what makes the "goose bumps" .  

 

I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother.

 

thank you for sharing something so intense and personal, your words painted my vision, your reality.

 

Hope writing was an outlet for your grief. You truly have a talent for words and the power they can have.

[scorpionking]

Mark,

 

A really intense and emotional write. Sorry for your loss, I think you've done your brother justice in this write and he would be very proud.

 

 

 

 

 

Best Wishes

 

 

Kevin