I heard my voice on a camera yesterday, which my friend recorded with just to see how we sounded.. Needless to say, my voice sounds absolutely nothing like my head-voice, and it kills me to know that I have such a dull, deep/lifeless voice. I don't really mind having a deep voice, but my tone sounds really nerdy and annoying to others, apparently. I don't know how people could even bother talking to me.. :s
To make a long story short, I get frustrated, he tries to console me, even goes so far as to say I sound really good, yet I know I sound like shit. Because we all know perfect pitch means diddly squat when you have a non-appealing voice, and mine sounds so very dull and lifeless. When I heard myself singing recorded, it sounded to me like I was half drunk or asleep. My friend just says I'm shy or somthing stupid like that. Thinks I'm shy about my voice, which is totally untrue. I like my voice how I hear it in my head, I just loathe the voice that others hear. I loathe it enough to take a knife to my throat.
So, anyways, is this all in my head, possibly? Can a voice sound horrible to it's owner, yet sound very good for others? It literally sounds horribly weak and dull to me, yet it sounds fine to me in my head.. My friend said the recording was good, though I strongly disagree.. Am I deaf to my own abilities? :s