I love trawling. You'll find this with experience...
Anyway.. when my voice first broke, I couldn't stand hearing it on recordings etc - but now I have literally just got used to it. It's all down to the difference between soundwaves being transmitted from your mouth and others hearing it, and the sound that you hear via the vibrations in your skull. About 30% of your hearing is done through guesswork and judging tonality through these wonderful vibrations in your skull. That's why for so many years male classical voices have been popular, due to the resonance of a low voice conveying emotion easier than a higher voice; purely through scientific means rather than any basis of talent or hard work. The thing that most singers have to overcome is the lack of ability of conveying feeling through the voice, as in your own head, the sense of emotion is already there. This can lead to 'differences' in perception of recorded sound.
Overall, you can try your bloody hardest to sound like the 'you' in your head, but then you'd just be much better. You sound like what you think you do to other people regardless, so don't really worry about it.