Changing

[iwishtorightasong]

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that i'm too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

 

when i walk my chains sway

i'm gonna f*cking walk away

get the hell out of this bitch

how do i walk

just like this

1 step, 2 step, 3 step,4

ill walk and walk and look back no more

I've done shit i cant deny

people always ask me why

andrew, did you want to die?

i say yes cuz i wont lie

and every single time i try 

to forget it just reminds

me about all of those times

that i wasn't doing fine

but the past is the past, so just move on

you can talk about my past when i'm dead and gone

but for now live for today 

i'm never going back,

living for today

forgetting about the past

as i walk ill stop and stare

 i know if i could go anywhere

id go to New York, Boston, Chicago

find a place to put on a rap show

these bitches and these hoes 

the only thing they knows 

is that being fake is the only way to go

all this shit about my past,

i don't give a crap

you can go f*ck yourself if you wanna think like that

what iv done ,its behind me

what i've said, its a memory

yet people think its o.k.

to get up in my face

andrew you little faggot!

how could you let this happen?

how does it fell to be on my own?

to be gone and away from home?

That's none of your biz you mofo

now leave before i sock yo

shut up before i knock yo

ass down to the ground below

haters gotta stop living in the past

the present is becoming the present too fast

you know one day we are all gonna die, 

on your deathbed looking up, 

what did i do with my life?

talking to god, i'm sorry i'm a hater,

i was nothing but a liar and a player

hating was my life and my life was full of hating

god be like look ,sorry for what i'm saying

i'm sending you to hell

ill throw you down a well

oh what we were just standing and he just kinda fell

should we get him?

no he'll be o.k.

just keep quiet and walk away

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that im too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

ill leave you to die

 cuz you'd leave me

get rid of compassion 

it'll only hurt me

you think that people care about 

love you nigga get me out

this fantasy is killing me

the real world is what i need

people don't take me

seriously when i'm talking

they don't trust me man its shocking

all these pills and meds are blocking 

all the thoughts that i'm concocting

but i know where i am walking

out the door

turn around 

turn the key 

the only sound 

you'll hear is me 

walking out

and i wont look back

if i look back 

it only proves that 

i miss my past

but i don't want it anymore

so i'm gonna slam the door

i'm walking away

far far away

living for today

that's what your gonna hear me say

forget about the past

 the past is the past

the the only thing i'm passing 

is the thing that i'm retracting

i'm sure with a little acting

they'll forget and stop asking

i'm reeling in these memories 

i've picked up over centuries

6 feet deep ill bury em

so i don't have to carry em

all these words around my head

sorry if i forget,

but it was my papa who said

i can change if i really care

that set it for me then and there

i cant change my past,

itll haunt me forever

i can either run or learn

will i run?never

So stop talking about things that nobody even cares about

you still might not understand, so i'm gonna lay it out

i'm gonna wake up 

wash off this makeup

put on a mask

 and focus on my task

I'm changing right before you're eyes,

 i might need to improvise

I may fall down a couple times

but determinations in my eyes

i'm changing my behavior

 i'm becoming my own savior

if you can only trust me

 from my quest i'll never waver

when i'm done with my journey

you will see me differently

people see me as an egotist

just one more name on that long list

you say that i'm too late and out of range

motherf*cker stand here and watch me change

 

i'm changing for the people and the life that i once had

if i could do it over i would not be such a fag

looking at the man in the mirror i do not like what i'm seeing

i hate the guy that i've become that's what i'm decreeing

look i know i f*cked up

i'm trying to make it better

i'm trying to make amends

 that's why i'm writing this letter

I'm abandoning my past

i ain't ever going back

so you better shut your trap

or prepare to get bashed

i said i'm changing my behavior

but sometimes i cant control my temper

that's why i went to north range

wasting peoples time

cuz a few weeks later

 i was all good and fine

but they did not believe me

so i still go to therapy

and you know what

that's fine by me

cuz i get to hang with my homies

even when i was a newbie

it felt like they already knew me

as soon as i walked through that door 

i didn't feel alone no more

 

 

[tracyl]

Hey, not bad. Nice finish but I think the 2nd verse would need reworking. Well, the beginning of it. I had to force myself to go through it but it was worth it after. Yet I still think you should rethink over it.

Maybe just erase it all together

ill leave you to die

cuz you'd leave me

get rid of compassion

it'll only hurt me

you think that people care about

love you nigga get me out

And add a few lines to the finish to show how you changed or did not change, if you want to conclude it. Except from these it was great the words just fell in place and made this oddly interesting character.

[iwishtorightasong]

thanks i appreciate the feedback!

[tracyl]

Anytime