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  1. such a pathetic day yesterday was !!

    early in the morning, dad wasnt feeling well..so i was sent to my granma's home..when coming back..some guy coming from wrong side hit me..and i hurt my leg..

    day was boring and painful. i went to hostel in the noon and slept over there..and room-mate didnt see my spects and he broke them..so it was hard for me to come back home on my own..

    i asked him to drop me of home on my scooter..he was riding too fast..he couldnt manage to hit the breaks..and whole front part is damaged..it have been only a week since i had got my new scooter !!

    whole front part will have to be replaced..such a gross !!

    thats it..it still pains in the leg though !

    current mood : apathetic

    now playing : grimskalle trell - borknagar

  2. Lovestruck !

    By neoism ,

    Dear Diary,

    it feels great to be in love, they say "love at first sight"..true, but i call it just an affection or attraction. Love can't be at first sight, its about knowing each other, its not about how many times you say I LOVE YOU to your partner or how many times you KISS her..neither it need to be said-done. It's all about feeling/understanding what ur mate want to say without words, its all about without a speaking a single word, holding her hand warmly..coz that warmth speaks "I CARE FOR YOU" and thats even way too important thn million I LOVE YOUs. Thats only thing you need in a healthy relationship or lovelife or whatever you call it.

    One thing i learnt about it is that being possisive harms you much. it weakens your partner's faith in you. Coz apparently its YOU whos making your partner's faith in you.

    ok ! i have messed up with loads of ideas and thoughts coming to mind and this whole thingy has become so randome, hope that'd make some sense !


    current mood = blunt

    now playing = gateways of bereavment

  3. Enlightment

    By neoism ,

    last friday, i was with my friends at out regular meet place..me and other friend had arrived, we were waiting for others to come..as usual i bought a smoke and started withering away my lungs ! and a rickshaw driver was by side..

    he was poor, but he made me feel poorer !

    he : why you smoke ?
    me : its a stress remover
    he : have you seen the stress ?
    me : its a feeling, its up right in here ! *me pointing my head*
    he : no, you are wrong.
    he : and even if its so, there are other ways to relieve stress !
    me : *speechless*avoiding eye contact*still smoke in my hand*
    he : u seem a student..eh ?
    me : yep
    he : 18 ?
    me : yea
    he : why wasting life/money ?
    me : *looks down*

    it really felt like if the road would swollow me, i'd let it !

    he : leave it..
    me : i m trying..soon i'll
    he : it doesnt work like that..if you want to go there *points out a place* and u don't wanna go by walking, neither lift, nor an airplane..the place is not gonna come to you..its YOU, who have to go for it..
    he : anyway, its your life, your wish, i cant force you to do something..does your parents know about it ?
    me : *nods*
    he : have you ever think of them..what would happen to 'em ?

    The smoke was still in my hand..and i sat aside with friend..but i couldnt take a drag inside..something was pinching deep inside ! i threw it away..and break the rest !
    meantime a begger came..and that rick driver had bought tea and he offered it to begger ! and i keep looking at him ! how big heart he has !

    despite working whole day, gathering every single penny, he gave it away to the begger. that tea was his dinner and yet he gave away. the begger denied to take it..he gave away few coins thn ! and i really felt like crying

    though he didnt had money but he had rich heart..he was even richer then bill gates or any rich person..he simply got away shaking his hands with me and telling me nice to meet you !

    he was gone, but i did note his number plate ! although i dont know his name and meeting him again in life is almost null..but i'd always remember such great person !

    confession :i m one of those morons, dickhead *every possible abuse* who is useless, coz the spirit lasted for 2 days only..y-day again i had smoke in my mouth. YOU can SLAP me if you want..i desrve it ! despite warned 1000 of times by friends, girlfriend {she thinks i have left though } and people..i m still the same..whats the difference between me and the dog, whos tail would never be stright ! pity me

  4. Dear Diary

    By neoism ,

    i m sick of this things happening..neither i study nor do i enjoy the things that i do on daily basis..surfing over internet for like 6 hours everyday..talking to girls..doesnt really make life worth !
    playing guitar but i m betraying myself..i neither give my 100% into it either..i feel like reading something but too lazy to go to library..hang out with friends..talking about shit..no fruitful conversations..i really dont remember when i had been into a debate or the conversation which was not about bitching someone or gossiping..or something that made some real sense !
    i m of no use..i neither have real friends..every1 hates me and those whom i hang out everyday, they can't be called friends..they are with me untill they dont find me some other like me..of whom they can make fun of..who can ride to everywhere they want to go !
    i suck big time. song ideas have been flooding inside, but this laziness aint letting me do anything. plus its too hot here almosy 43 degree celcius. i m surprized that i m alive..i cant go out in the noons either..even it hot at 7:30 in the morning..it gets lil cold at 7:30 pm..when the f*ck am i suppose to go out.
    one good thing happened in past few days/weeks that i have almost quitted smoke.

    anyway, nothing really got to say ! thanks for reading bullshit !

    mood : frustrated

    now playing : antikrist - dimmu borgir

  5. Get Well Soon....lol

    By neoism ,

    damn, monday while i was back from work at around 10:10 pm....i was feeling cold...and when i checked it was 101* F...lol...the next morning i was feeling good...but still inside was the fever...and i ignored and i call up my friend at home...and we watched almost two movies back to back...and that lead me from bad to worse {not worst coz yet to come}...and suddenly at around 4 pm i started shivering...so i slept...but when i woke up...it was more worse {still not worst}...and the same went on for more 2 days...but i was yesterday i was all good till 2 pm and i thought "phew, its over" and i slept...but when i woke up i was shivering like hell...and i was wearing almost 5 blankets and still my body didnt stop shivering...it went for almost 2 hours...all my muscles were paining due to constant shivering...then mom called a pathologist...that guy came home and took my blood...and later in the evening report came and it said i got malaria...

    so mom went to out doc for medicine...but as a matter of fact...when she was back my fever had gone...although i had headache...but i had no fever...lol...so i watched TV for sometime...and suddenly...i puked...all that i ate way back in the morning came out as it was...lol...then i had series of womits for some time...and finally everything came out i felt like nothing had happened to me...! so i watched a movie till late...and today i am feeling quite better...but still right now i am having headache....and even doc has said that i have to be very carefull for atleast a week...!

  6. I Almighty

    By neoism ,

    has ever this happened to you..? you speak something and that happens in very near future...! for me it's happening from two days..

    saturday while on our way to swimming session my friend and i were talking about bomb blast that happened in Banglore the previous day. so far our city is also a developing city { currently india's 7th biggest city }....so my friend said...now it's our turn...and i said what if it happens today...! and it did happened...17 serial bomb blast occured in our city..WTF...17 blasts in 2:30 hrs...and two of them were in hospital...!

    yesterday...finishing a play and returning home...on our way, with the same friend...again happened...

    so far it's rainy season here...but it's not been raining here at all...even govt. said that if it doesn't rain in next week....they will officially announce this year NO-RAIN....

    and while way back home...i said...now what if it rains "cats and dogs" continuesly for 3 hrs....and right now it's 8:30 in the morning...and it has been raining here since 3:00 am...and it has not stopped yet....wow...!

  7. New Start

    By neoism ,

    wow...college is gonna start...how it'd feel...that suddenly...for two years you've been seniors...and now you become juniour....and ragged by seniors...!

    but i am quite excited about going to college...everything changes...no school uniform...no lots of books...no constant attending lectures...!
  8. it's been a while since i have updated my blog...but now i am back....

    recently i got this beautiful songstuff T-shirt....and i deeply thank steve for sending me this beautiful T-shirt...

    offending others...is really a bad habbit...every-one is free to express their thoughts...one doesn't need to critisize what previously others have reviewed...when i am looking at some-one's lyrics, then i have my own thoughts....why do i offend what the others have said previously...there's no point of saying that " I TOTALLY DISAGREE WITH XYZ ".....you write your own thoughts...i write my own thoughts...

    it's not about me....i have seen it many times...many people offend others....so that the owner of the post would think that this person is very simpathatic...and understanding...and pretty good and all those shit...so the previous guy would come into the owner's eyes and would think bad about him....so next time while reviewing...he'd keep in mind..."ohk...that guy previously didn't say good about me...let me do the same with him..."....why such rage...?

    it's kinda complex would build up in one's mind...a certain mindset or impression would build up in his mind...that they can't see the others good quality either....so disapointing...personally i take care and respect every-one's opinion...it's his way of thinking...and he has said what's in his/her mind...

    for example...some people never tend to review my lyrics....so i take it positively...and take it as a chance for improvement...
    i'd think...

    "ohk...this guy has not reviewed me...i need to improve"

    "i'd tend to write so good that one day i'll convince him with what i have written...his hands itself would force him to say some words or write some comments for what i have offered to him..."

    but this is what i think...hope i haven't bored you...

    have a nice day...

  9. Trip Cancelled

    By neoism ,

    hello....whoa....i got admition call cum counselling call today....so i had to cancelled my visit...all though mom and dad has gone but i am here....all alone in my home....

    i have counselling on 3rd july 8 am.....for archi. cross your fingers for me....my merit number is 71 among 350....

    but i am here....phew....now i won't have to miss you all....

  10. Away

    By neoism ,

    hello folks......today i am leaving for Pune to meet my brother....and it would be almost a week....so i am away from here....i'll miss you all....

  11. Phonation

    By neoism ,

    current mood : bored

    current track : beautiful by 10 years

    two days ago while finishing chat with Neoteric, i got up and went on terese to fresh myself....and it was a gentle breeze....i was listening to "shadow of the day" and it felt like i was in trance.....i almost listened the song for 5 times....and when on stairs i recorded my voice and then put over here....it was late 2:00 am....so i had to sleep....but when in the morning i opened songstuff...i was shocked.....people liked it....this is what steve said...
    i am very much "flabbergasted".....that people liked my voice....coz people around me never praised about my singing....and therefore i quite singing 3 years ago...but i think now i should not worry...and practice much to improve my vocals...
    Meanwhile my archi. result was out and i scored only 80 out of 200........but when i compared with others, you won't believe, i have got much more better then them...i didn't had any tuitions for it whereas they wasted almost 10,000 bucks on the tuitions.......and yet i scored better then them........

    my first collaboration with Neoteric was great....but seems people didn't like it much....but it's not the end of the world....we are working on a new project "celebration"....and soon we'll come up with a new one....

  12. Elicite

    By neoism ,

    hey folks....i am very much excited about this....we both Neoteric and I had lyrics collaboration.....and we are done with the song...

    the song is about a girl and her comparison with a rose...and wasp and love and her conceitedness....we have worked hard....working with Andrew { A.K.A. Neoteric } was a great experience....he's a guy with some rich ideas with a good vocabulary.........it's joint venture....hope you all would like it...

    amazing thing is while discussing, Andrew came up with a nice keyboard Riff....and now i think soon i'd hit with a melody too....coz i had a good melody in my mind....

    and now we are thinking of collaborating on one another song....themed upon "celebration"....and we have named ourselves "Burn Victims"....

    and yeah do tell us how is our new song "she's my nothing"
  13. phew finally my archi. exam is over....it was really tiresome day....sitting constantly for 2 hrs and draw something meaningless....i thought they might would ask something live scatching or object drawing....but they didn't ask anything like that....they just had given one picture and what we had to do was to draw it again on the paper scaled doubled....huh...what the hell is difficult in that....and second part was memory drawing....and i was asked to draw a street juggler.....and i managed well....

    then it was aptitude test....which was difficult but not so difficult as it seemed for others....coz in grade 8, 9 and 10th i had taken technicle subjects...in that we study what engg. students learn in their first year....and in that aptitude test they asked for plan, elevation, end view, surface developement and some questions related to interiour designing....but they were easy....but english vocab. part proved nightmare for me....i lost mostly my marks in that section....i know its a shame for a songwriter....so finally i was the first one to finish exam and to go out....all teachers were astonished for my speed.......but those plan, elevation stuff is much easy for me....i just can tell in a blink...so i solved all those questions in 1 min........

    so far it had been tiresome day so i simply fell off to the bed when i came home....one of friend in our group is persuing for IIT {Indian Institue of Tech.} and the enterence exam for it is the most difficult in whole india....although he cracked this year but his rank was above 7000 and that is not enough rank to go for his favourable line, mechanicle....so he is going to take it again and for preparations he is going outstate....so we had farewell party for him.....and after that we had some puffs of hukka.....we almost enjoyed smoking for almost 2 hrs...till the shop keeper told us to leave.......FYI-Hukka is a traditional Indian smoking machine{not exactly machine...but like that...i donno how to explain}....and after that we all had gather at friends home played cricket for till 2 AM...every one's hungry...but no restuarant would be opened this late....no probs....we went to city hospital where shops are opened for 24 hrs {obviously unofficially}....so we went there with screaming....and we enjoyed cup of tea with some cheese, and jam and butter with buns....while eating police raided....every one ran off into the hopitals....but those who got caught had to face alcohole test {in our state alcohol is prohibited:P}...but soon the police left from there and evrything started as it was 30 mins ago....

    hey i just updated my myspace profile....although i had been member since long but i was not using it....but recently i suddenly found an old friend of mine at myspcae....he moved to US in 4th grade....and since then there was no news of him....although his granpa met my dad in bank where he works....but rather then there was no news of him....and suddenly i found him over myspce i was so happy to see him....he is so much changed...firstly i couldn't recognize him....but he had sent some letters from his school...so i recognized him by his school name some other profile info....but i am very happy to see him...we used to be best friends...

    it has been many days since i have written any song....which is another shame for me....i have some 3 songs roughly ready but in vacation i have become so lazy....all it needs some editing but i don't do it...all i do is SONGSTUFFING, watching TV, sleeping and playing football....but yeah i am thinking to join gym and swimming class from tomorrow....but lts see my laziness alow me to do so......

    currently i am listening to A7X....and they are f*cking amazing...i really love their guitar solos in the songs....

  14. Dissapointed

    By neoism ,

    today i went to the head office of education board to get reassesed my chemistry paper....so far i got only 70 and i expected 82 min....

    but it was a tiresome day.....and full of dissapointment....they didn't agree to increase my marks....
  15. hiya.....dutchs won by scoring 3 goals.....but i was dissapointed with Rudd Van Nistalroy's performance....

    but i must be the most unlucky guy in this world that i can't get to see live...

    coz when it's telecasted it's the time of daily soaps and mom never miss them.....so i have to watch the repeat telecast in the next morning....

    but that's okey....

    today it was mix kinda day for me....morning full of angerness noon excitement and fear, and evening full of rejoice...

    this monday i have archi. entrance exam, so i borrowed some model papers of previous years from my friends....i have told my parents 1000 times that don't clean up y room without letting me know....but they cleaned and i couldn't find the papers which were right on the bed.....so i blasted and locked myself in the room.....but later i found them in the bunch of waste papers....phew...

    in the noon...a totally unexpected thing happened.....a weired animal of lizard group, but almost 10 times bigger then lizard, came to our neighbourhood....and it hide into our neighbour's house.....luckily our neighbours were able to trap it in between two doors....almost whole colony was gathered at my home.....my dad called up for snake catching team but they didn't seem answering the phone so my dad personally went at the office but they told it was their recess time and they won't come untill 3:00....then suddenly on his way home dad found a begger kind of person and he got ready to catch him....but the problem was no-one was ready to open the door....everybody was scared.....but i had been to nature camps and watching "Nigel Marvin" or "Steve Irwin" on the discovery channel.....i gethered the strength and went from the back door to open the front door where the "gaint lizard" was trapt.....the guy also came with me, as a matter of fact he was also scared , i opened the door and jumped up onto bed. the lizard was not moving we both thought it's dead. but i suddenly jumped upto almost 2 feet when that guy touched the tip of the stick he carried....and it went out and it was running enormously. the mob that gathered got scattered with scream and shouts of fear.....they all ran into my house and locked the door....meanwhile that guy and other neighbour try to catch the lizard but it ran and hide somewhere in our garden.....but after 5 minutes they succeeded to catch the lizard....phew....

    in the evening....i went to play football....and best thing was it was raining....though i was late and the game had already started, so i joined the team it was 2-1, my team had scored 2 goals.....i just entered the field and one of the rivals hit the ball so hardly that it went in nearby construction site....they just had cemented an underground tank...so they denied to enter into it.......see my entry led them to loose the ball....

    Hey, I have an old ball, one lad said.

    then what the hell are you waiting for...? bring it...

    but it has less air in it....

    don't worry we'll manage...

    but....it is tored from two points....

    shut up and brig the f*cking ball....

    then he brought the ball and we start playing...and even having a strong affensive and deffensive line up our rivals were not able to score the goals and we scored 9 goals....hahah....
    i also scored one.....usually i don't get to score coz i am mid-fielder so i just bring the ball the offencer and pass....but we managed to have the lead of 5 goals....huh...
    but it was really tiresome we almost had played for 2 and half hrs.....

    and now i am writing this blog and listening to the recently downloaded album of the band "Take the Crown"....nice progressive rock....i really enjoyed it....firstly i listened the songs at purevolume.com and i liked this band.....somehow i managed to grab a few songs from myspace....but i couldn't find the whole albums.....but finally i got it in pocket.....

  16. Hurt My Toe....:(

    By neoism ,

    these days football fever is at its max.....

    although for me its always on top then cricket.....cricket is suckers game.....{i'd rather watch dexter's lab then watching a cricket match....}

    yesterday while playing in a local park i'd mistakenly hit the park bench....LoLLzzz.... and now my f*cking toe is badly hurt....

    thank god i've not got a fracture.....:S

    but worse thing happened today......i went again to play and i am again badly hurt at the same place....

    huh..... but i'll still go to play tommorrow again....although tomorrow my role would be defender....which is pretty embrassing for me....but "the show must go on...."

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