Richard Watashi

I am pretty honoured.

its up to you. dont think id be angry, i just talk

hmm, i was not selected. i get it that my stuff is not fitting the Songstuff society too much better, than as a black sheepy thing that you need, like every place has its weirdo. And i could be proud about me, being different. Just working on getting self aware more.

I am lonely. I search for some connection to another person, but i dont admit to myself completelly that i really try to get close to feel understanding and acceptance, and care and all i need. But i dont try too much, to feel blame. I just flirt if i can, but i am telling to myself its just this and im not getting for the result... but it is like this: i do flirt, i dont intend to really get a gf, but i leave the space opened in case i could get something better than living lonely inside. This loneliness isnt bad. I use it as a personal growth. Its not natural to be lonely too long, they say. definitelly good as well for introspections, and getting more self focused. Its all still hard, but this year was best since many of the previous...

mornings nights long times hurt in heart hurt in head ... this song is everything i can listen to for over a whole week. Please check this: Listen to PTK - DLOUHÝ ČASY (Prod. Beatsbygetro) by payapeaceful_2 on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/HQRn7

All that i ever wrote was either honest writting, or it just reflected something important, or it was a lot of times naive pretending, or a game on saying something i didnt understand. I mean i can put lyrics that i know are not shit at least for me, cause i can understand what i say - and i say what i mean and i mean it if its figured out. is it better to.. write more natural, or cover it in nice clothes, i mean to play with words just for it to looks better.. but i think when you write, its more important to think of the meaning. And to get to the center of the whatever.

where can i check it?

Why do i bother so much? How to take it easy? If the happiness means wanting to live, i need so much more so, how the hell am i supposed to take it easy?

Wondering why i want to talk so much a to be heard. Im not sure what this time, but let me get there. So i think the society is not right. You can see the classes and so on in every small or big group of people. These hierarchies seem to matters everything, but what if its not totally truth? Like the everything isnt perfect. I f*ck it. Sorry. It doesnt even matter.

Hey John and all the musical people. have never been at the comunity playlist. I recently started on SoundCloud again. Its all categorized as Electronic, cause if i think about the genre - i would call it Electronical Effort To Hold On but that just doesnt sound like a genre. I have a few tracks on SC. I have not many successes and so.. Would be glad if i could get there. Check out Richard Watashi on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/vfj3x

I dont listen to music. It is wet outside, i can hear the cars passing by and throwing the water of the road. The wind is heavily breathing, he works hard. From the other room i can hear the TV. They are watching something old and Czechish. I just guess, it sounds so. I dont hear much more. Movements i make. Sounds i make. And the silence that is here, telling me to dont rush. It tells me to move on, when im sure.

Singing, i wanted to learn it last months, but i didnt try Be more independant and less eassyli hurt. I am sure i am well aware of what i did wrong. And i know i am bad in many things. I just cant stand when i have to be too long without a person to talk to. I just hate the anxiety or more likely - the fear that i am not acceptable when i am the way i am. Hard to change many of my negative elements. And as it is hard to change, the harder is to find out, when somebody speaks bad about me in an unfair way. I mean, i am trying to live, and i have so little now, in a new beggining of my life. I need to get less dependant on other people views on me. My mind doesnt mean harm, i just try to make my way through the days less uncomfortable.

Thank you Patchez. I can follow, but i mostly cant do what is right. I feel like i am too late for living.

I am so cool, i think nobody can hurt me. I just feel so great, ANd i love her, the one that knocks on my window to go out (and even she mostly stops here because she wants something from me, i just really like her).

Been working on a track since morning till late and placed it here in the critique thread. I was really sure i am on a right track to have a potent material. I didn't get high / or drank. I felt negativelly though. And tomorow i have to travel. And i hope i am hired since next Tuesday, however i am scared of the new job. Now it is 23.05 - so >this was my day in a nutshell.