Hope4Peace

OK. So, I have started my own personal diary of sorts to keep track of my fishy business! It was suggested I post it as a blog! OK, so first of all, Since my diary did not start until I started cycling my tank I will give some BG info.. 10 gal tank (to be used for quarantine/hospital tank) 2 inch gravel (1 inch sand colored fine substrate for plants, 1 inch colored substrate for looks) 6 fake plants 2 live plants 1 large cave ornament 1 med sized pink/whiteish rock (real) 1 4 inch long bubble stone. 3 plant bulbs Before this first post, my two live plants where removed. (due to in order for my bacteria colony to grow, cannot have plants that will absorb all the ammonia) So.. here goes... Day 1 (9/29/07) Added ammonia, waited 4 hours. testing 3.0. Added more ammonia to bring up to 5.0. tested 12. did 25% PWC. testing low again, added a few more drops of ammonia. Testing 5 now. Day 2 (9/30/07) Temperature fluctuations. Yesterday w/ light 79.9F w/o light 96.4 Before bed 75 wake up today 74. 5:20 pm 80 (after light being off for one hour) Day 3 (10/01/07) Ammonia holding steady. temp fluctuations continue. Removed fake plants. Bulbs still not sprouted. Will leave in until done cycling. if still not sprouted will remove and replace with live plants. Also: Two inches of gravel. Too much. removed 1 inch. Also removed rock as placement was not sufficient. any fish who would swim in front of filter would end up being pushed into it. Left cave. It and a few live plants will be more than suitable for its purpose as a QT tank.

wow.... and I thought the fishsticks song was stupid! LISTEN TO IT! Lyrics..... I fixed the spelling so you could actually read it!.. but seriously.. just listen to it! Josh Tobin "Fish Sticks"

..... Nevermind.. realized it was FOR FOLK MUSIC... lol

I used to use D'Addario but I found I was snapping my strings quite a bit, ok not all that much but a good handful of times.. and for someone like me who's scared to death of a string hitting me in the face that was too much for me. I used to be scared to tune my guitar or change the strings for that reason. So, I went to a guitar shop and asked for a good set of strings that wont break easily, and, had a nice, warm sound. I was recommended Earthtones. I loved them and thats what Ive used ever since, Earthtones Phosphor Bronze medium gauge.. Ive not yet had one break on me and I really do like the sound.

My father. I don't even really like him but when I was a little girl and didn't know any better he was my hero. I would sit and listen and watch him play for hours. even when I grew older and didn't really like my father I still couldn't help but love his playing. Granted hes not all that great by any means. but hes not terrible either. I always thought it was nice seeing him mess up and go back and try to figure it out, which eventually and usually not after too long, he did. (he never took lessons and did not read music all was done by ear). He is the reason why I picked up guitar myself. If I can become even as good as he was I will have accomplished my goal.

I like the star ones. I think the ones that just have designs as the fret markers are fine but I dont like the ones that have designs down the entire length. that would confuse the hell out of me. But I really like the "stars moons and commets" one. It let me view the first page of the gallery but when I tried to go to page 2 or 3 it redirected me back to page one, then to the main page.

LOL. I dont think so.. Im pretty sure direct sunlight is bad for most all electronic devices.

LOL I love my voice over the intercom!

word of advice to all.... STAY AWAY FROM VISTA!!!!! seriously though. I hate it!!!!!! you cant do anything!!! you go to open IE.... your security settings will not allow you to run Internet Explorer while using aol dialer. ... I override that.. ' this program "internet explorer" is trying to run... do you want to allow this?' click ok.. try to open a site... ' this web browser "internet explorer" is trying to open this site" bla bla bla" do you want to allow this?' click ok this site cannot be displayed for security reasons :| so finally I set all the security settings in the internet options down to low or off or whatever and no sooner than I hit apply.. .... big yellow warning box and alarms go off.... YOUR COMPUTER IS AT RISK!!!! CLICK HERE TO FIX THIS PROBLEM.. so I shut down norton. then the whole time online theres a yellow banner above the web pages.. ' the current security settings put your computer at risk, click here to fix this' you can click out of that box, but the second you go to a different page it comes back up! Try to download yahoo messenger.. it sais it cannot open that page... tried it on aol.. same thing.. I had to download opera to be able to download yahoo. like I said... STAY AWAY FROM VISTA!!!

some days I dont mind my voice, some, I even like it, others, not so much.

ok, for anyone who cares, Im back on myspace. add me if youd like.. I could really use some friends.. I swear I wont delete you this time http://myspace.com/hope4peace86

I love how people dismiss my ideas, then later they use them as if it was their own. this is all I have to say to them ....WHATEVER! The most recent case. A poetry site I used to be active at. I suggested that they have something when you sign in that tells you which poems have new comments. At the time, you would see a list of ever poem you had and beside it where links with a number, example (3) would mean you had 3 comments if you had 1 new comment on that poem it would say (3)(1). Now, these links are very small. and for members who have hundreds of poems, its a bit of a pain in the ass to look through them all to see if they have new comments. Hence, my suggestion.. well the staff and many members said, thats a stupid idea, you can just look at the list and it will tell you... yea, I just signed into my account there.. guess what the newest feature is? upon login you now get a list of your poems with new comments.. hmm wonder who thought of that? like I said.... whatever

Well, I cant say I would be upset if I this week was completely erased from my memory. I kept hoping it would look up, but the change of tides never did come. I really hoped it would get better tonight when I got home from work, but nothing has changed, well other than another day has gone by. I know, I tell other people to look on the bright side, but im not seeing any light right now. Ive had to go all week wondering if my man was mad at me or if he was hurt or something. I was physically sick all week until yesterday and I didnt even realize why. I finally figured it was from the diet pills I started taking. Work has been BLAH but also BOOM. alot of clashing. One of the supervisors is breaking down, she just cant handle it anymore. If she would start taking advice from other people she might make it, but if she doesnt change soon, shes going to be fired. Me, im just trying to keep myself out of the way, do my job and nothing more, since everyone is pretty much ignoring me anyways and nobody ever seemed to give a f*ck when I went the extra miles anyways, so f*ck it. Im sick of being the only one who cares. but oh well. Then, oh and this is great. I spent $300 on two bedding/curtain sets (one blue one purple) and of course, just like always my luck.. what happens? delivery problems.. why.. f*cking asshole sellers feel the need to use DHL.. goddamn idiots. now I was supposed to get the damn package 2 weeks ago, I talked to a woman at DHL last saturday and gave her VERY clear directions and a description.. goddammit theres a huge f*cking rock face mountain right behind my house, you cant miss it. she told me, oh yes, i know where you are talking about, we will get that back out to you next week (this week).. well guess what.. IT HASNT COME!!!! I just went on dhl to see the tracking info.. its giving me errors like crazy wont let me view the tracking info WTF.... but hey, whats it matter, with my luck I probably wont even be getting my new house anyways, or my husband for that matter.... someone just give me a hole to crawl into, please.

its when I really need you, that you're never around its when I start to trust you, that you always let me down its always when I'm truthful that you lie right to my face its for all the things i love of you, theres just a much to hate. and its never enough to tell you how I feel. its always too much cause you know my words are real. but when you ask me if Ill leave you, I still reply "never". and when you ask how long my love will last, It will always be "forever". its when you say you'll be there, that you never do show up its when you promise to do it, that you always seem to give up. its when I try my best, that you just cant give at all. its the moments that mean the most to me, you never can recall and its never enough to tell you how I feel. its always too much cause you know my words are real. but when you ask me if Ill leave you, I still reply "never". and when you ask how long my love will last, It will always be "forever". you couldn't bear to hear the truth again another round with Mr Hide but somehow you seem to turn it all around and make me out to be the bad guy and though it never makes a difference, ill still tell you how I feel and ill ask for your forgiveness though i know my words where real. but when you ask me if Ill leave you, I'll still reply "never". and when I ask if you still love me, you always say "forever".

Kittens are quite amusing. It amazes me still to this day just how much character they have, even at such a young age. Some people think, oh theyre just animals, but its amazing how much of an individual personality even animals have.

Ive made my mind already, that crap is nasty. im not drinking another drop. so what my pants are a little tight, I can wait the few weeks it takes to loose it the old fashioned way.......... exercise till I pass out and pop lots of diet pills on an empty stomach ...... .....Just kidding

Well, you know that "Hollywood 48 Hour Miracle Diet" came out quite a few years back, well its still on the market. The past month or so I have gained a few lbs. prolly about 5. so anyways, this diet. heres the deal. you eat/drink nothing but this special juice and water for 48 hours and you can loose UP TO 10 lbs. so ok I figure why not. It sais on the bottle GREAT TASTING!!! So what can the harm be? drink some good juice, loose a few lbs. ... yea well I just started it and well.. all I have to say is.. Its a good think you have 4 hours to drink 8 oz's of that shit then you get a 2 hour break before starting again, because IT TASTES LIKE CRAP!!!!!!!!! Seriously, Its nasty. but screw it, thats the price of beauty, If I cant take it I can abandon, but im going to at least try... Ill let you know how it turns out.

lovely blog, donna. Your children sound wonderful little "G" seems to be quite the ticket! better keep an eye on her. You are dealing with this, or seem to be at least, much better than I believe I would. Im afraid I will be the parent who tries to keep her kids at home till theyre 30! Anyways, hope youre son does well on his own, from what youve said, he seems to be a very intelligent and focused young man. Best of wishes to your and your family

he might be inspired to buy plenum cables, or cover his existing ones with expando

How sick are people, what has the world come to? what has happened to us that parents murder their own children? and in such cruel ways. What has this world come to when mothers put their infants in the microwave??? not just one case, but two I heard of. one in 99 and one in 05 that I heard of this am on the news. WHAT THE f*ck IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!!!!!!!! how could you bear a child only to be so cruel to it? I just dont get it. I really am a believer that people should need a license to have kids. mental evaluation and check ups every 6 months. thats why I say. people like this would not be allowed to own pets, so why children? what the hell has this world come to. It kills me to think that my child/children will grow up in a world so cruel. I seriously am going to consider home schooling for them when the time comes, either that or I would rather not have kids if this is what they will have to deal with. I cant even bear watching/listening to the news. someone tell me what is wrong with this picture.. the damn NEWS!!!!! And people wonder why I dont want to watch it. of course I want to know whats going on in the world but what the f*ck, theres some things in all honesty I dont want to know about, I wish I could be completely naive to the cruelty of this world. because what kind of existence is it that the mere act of watching the damn news breaks your heart every day.

OK, so, I finally got around to the gallery. Dont expect much more than whats in there now, not for a while at least since my camera is busted LOL.. I added a few icons I made. YES, I really did make them, they say coolbuddy.com because I submitted them to msnicon.com and all icons must have coolbuddy.com on them in order to be accepted. yes i know they suck and yes I stole the bgs of the cat and pina colada ones.. only the background image. not the text or saying.. im not a complete thief.. no more than anyone else on that site lmao... I have dozens more (many of which are 100% original but thats all I could fit. anyways most of them arent that great anyways LOL.. but yea.. I need to go do some cleaning now..

All too right.. even if it may seem useless, even if you may think no one cares anyways, its good to be able to just speak your mind, get whatever you can out. I think someone like you would be really good at free writing. don't think, don't censor, just let it flow. Anyways. I think your just fine .. its keeping my attention and that in itself is purpose enough.

Well well, its been an interesting week to say the least. Stayed late every night until Thursday as usual. Wednesday, I was even the only QC person. Friggin crazy, thats what it was. CRAZY, but hey, its my job. Wendnesday morning I had to go in early for a meeting. Figures, as if I didn't already have enough to deal with at work, starting Monday, QC will be in charge of tooling. When an assembler needs a tool for an order ( other than those in their tool boxes, screw drivers, various wire and jacket strippers, clamps, ect.. ) things like hand crimpers that cost thousands of dollars.. well, they are no longer going to be going to inventory. Now, they will come to QC, and WE will have to check the order, look the tool up, find an available one in the system. get it physically, inspect it, log it out of the system. when they bring it back, inspect it, log it back in. you get the idea. well whatever.. all because people arnt responsible. not the assemblers with the tools, and not inventory personnel with keeping track of them. wendnesday night we lost power. it just went out. so I figured I would see if it was just us or other people, turns out the next town was out. but no apparent reason why. the weather was fine. so as I kept driving, i found the following town had power, so I turned on to a back road to loop around.. found the problem.. huge tree right in the damn road, all the way across it. I start slowing down, the tree still pretty far ahead. then I realize something else and stop on a dime. The power lines all around me, on the ground just a few feet from the damn car, god did that scare me, took me a minute to back out away from them. got home and called the power company and told them.. luckily, the power was back on by the time i got up in the morning. but yea.... thats a quick summary of my week. oooo no, thats not lol.. so, Wednesday as I was leaving work.. LATE.. deb (of deb and jeff the OWNERS of the company) she was talking to me and yea, she said that we would start enforcing the 4pm cut off again. if its not past QC at 4, its not going. now I don't leave till 5, so its not like I'm going to just stop, its more of. at 4, I work on whatever is priority, and by priority i don't mean management priority, i mean whatever is closest to going. if the line has a big order, at 4 o clock thats too bad, I will work on getting whatever is left of the small orders out.. and NO MORE STAYING LATE TO GET ORDERS OUT... now by "late" I mean 1, 2, 3 or more hours late... 5-20 minutes is fine. If something is close to going and is scheduled to ship, or worse, behind schedule. then ill stay to get it out. but the thing is, no more staying till 830 at night, having non assembly personnel working on assembling, and having someone drive the order down to ups personally because we missed the truck. Once in a while ok., but its been a nightly thing, and thats over with... and all I have to say is THANK GOD!!! oh, and one thing that hasnt made my week any better.. I miss my baby hes been gone all week on business .. returning tomorrow though

Did you know he was born about 20 minutes away from where I spent most of my life . Even now, I only live 2 hours from his home town. The local radio plays him alot, every day I hear his new song on the radio. "you can bring me flowers" I like his style, nice voice too.