You Say That You Know That You Don't

[guitar4christ]

You say that you know that you don’t

You know that it’s not, or you don’t know it is

But how could you ever, if your eyes are shut

I’ve learned to dream, because it’s all I can do

You’ve shied away, because it’s all you know, too

I’ve been hiding and dreaming, dreaming and hiding away

Because I don’t know what you’ll do the very next day

You say that you love me, you say that you don’t

I truly believe you, but sometimes I feel you just won’t

You’re afraid, I get it… You just need some time

But sometimes I wonder, why wait?

Time’s something we have so precious little of

And I want as much of you as I can get

But you’re not to be purchased, or even obtained

Hell, no one can even swoon you, so I try to refrain

From becoming too attached, loving you too much

Because heartache’s something that I know too well

But still, I willingly accept the torture

Of walking to you, before I go through the door

And bringing you in close… I’m falling more

More in love with you, every day

But further away, in 82 days I’ll be on my way

Hundreds of miles, and I’m so afraid we’ll have nothing to say

But I know that we will, and that might scare me the most

Because, I know I’ll still love you, but I’ll just be your ghost

And I’m starting to wonder if love even exists

Unless you make it, in which case I know that this is

Exactly what I’ve always wanted, because that’s what I’ve made it

But you’ve made it something completely different

You’ve made it a game of questions and doubts

When all I ever wanted was a piece of stable ground

And all I’ve ever had has been trials and failures

You don’t know how dearly I hold you, but it feels like another

Failed attempt to find something real, I’m hoping and praying

But it just feels like I’ll never get out of this, saying

I’m ok, because I’m not and I haven’t been

In so long, I’m finding it hard to remember

The last time I felt like everything was alright

And I can’t even come to remember a time

When my heart wasn’t conflicted, when I knew I was fine

Because there’s one thing that I know, with all of my heart

It’s that you say that you know that you don’t

And I don’t even know where to start...

[xfantasiix]

paragraphs? (: overall very good though